I had a long exhausting day. I spent most of my morning in Tribecca outside in the cold rain learning the route of my new dog walking job. Rushed to the Upper East Side to babysit. Then back to BK to have dinner with friends. I am now home alone listening to music and reflecting. I haven’t written on tumblr in forever.
I guess I’m kinda sad. I texted my bff today saying today is our 10 year anniversary of us being friends and got no response back. My boyfriend also said that he would possibly see me, but stopped texting me once he got into the city. He’s hanging out with old friends. I’m not sure if it’s my lack of self-esteem or if it’s my high expectations or maybe I just refuse to see the bigger picture. Or maybe I’m not looking at in a different perspective. Maybe I’m just being selfish and only thinking about myself. I don’t always want to make plans first. I would like to get a text saying I want to see you lets hang out and it happens. Sometimes I feel like that’s mostly me.